Questions of faith arise from mortality and immortality, from the eternal and the internal, but also from having faith and belief in ourselves, that we may be a whole person who is centered, and able to form and carry out deeds and actions, based on their perseverance and determinations. Religious beliefs and values do not contradict the nature of being Transgender, the act of contrition, and forming a rite of passage that creates a vision of hope and a voice for the individual, adds to the religious communities, and Transgender experience, a valid appeasement and conquest in communal reinforcement, that allows for all off God’s children who maybe gender variant, who doubt in the face of persecution, to become messengers of Gods interior and exterior design that sets the pattern of a decent life, and righteous cry for testifying our belief, and participation in our ever evolving and changing transitions, to discover just who, he or she is or what that means to one who is transgender.
Forgiveness and Self Forgiveness
Being gender variant establishes a person whose belief is based on identity, that a pattern of behavior developed synchronically to an evolving gender which contradicted their sex from when they were born. This is an entirely differentiated experience, that presupposes what others would have us believe, think, act or do, that somehow by exacerbating the closet, Transgender’s can turn to God, and proclaim they are unmasked, meaning their self respect is earned by understanding both sides of the coin, who they were and who they were not from birth. Belief based on expectation is filled with shortcomings, it is the false notion that ideologies somehow form the premise of what we should turn to for guidance and direction. The Transgender experience with God is highly interpersonal, and ought to be respected and embraced as such. As being the fruition of the channeling we have done to come out and say I am here, right now, with no pretensions or delusional preconditions. Just as Transgenders maybe non conforming in those who make a complete transition, Religions are non conforming, by allowing discriminatory policies to supersede what is just cause for renewal, in keeping with the sacrament that the believer need only say the word at God’s feet to be healed. The self appraisal Transgenders make when raising their prayers to God is one that says look how far I have had to come, see the cross I have had to carry, unburden me by being accountable for my sin, just as I am if faith and humble service to those in need and those of my calling.
Letting Go
This maybe the one irreconcilable change that is universal amongst transgender lives, letting go of the boy or girl we were born as, to assess our developments as gender variant people, to eradicate systems of masculinities and femininities to adapt to the present state of conditions and affairs gives to transgender a passage of renunciation, depicting for them just what notions have carried them along the way to form the personality, mind, body, and spirit that is conclusive of the nature of self assessment, and the source of unlimited resources that create spirited lives of unique personality development. Letting go of roles and tapes, may imply that Patriarchal hierarchies that stems from systems ceases to be relevant though it may imply rebelliousness, in fact it is the turning of the citadel, that forms the image of what a person can become, when they believe it is their god given right to do so. Transgenders need constant and continuous self appraisal, and justifiably they make these, perhaps one can view their transitioning as crossing lines, but unique to the transgender individuals experience is a point where salvation can be achieved, by the deconstruction of norms and expectations, and the rebuilding of principles that establish them as chosen to take this initiative for the purpose of self sanctimonious and reciprocal engagement.
Transference
Perhaps the best example I can give as evidence of this soul inclusive transference is that many Transgenders reach epiphanies, by crossing thresholds in which a belief in self identity has somehow transformed itself into a renewal of a life worth living, and as the spark of energy that creates a current that is affirming that Transgenders show up for themselves. Transition from one sex to another is a very high order, and one that requires careful thought and deliberation, it is the transformation into achieving a spirited presence, that avows to live one’s life completely as the unfolding of revelations that reveal that gender and sex expression of identity is one that is moved by the affectations and effectual skills, that form the human condition, and is focused on the possibilities we create by celebrating life. When the ego cries this is who I am, and the unconscious and conscious are divided, perhaps by trusting in the voice of angels, but being taught they are not chosen to follow the way, a disharmony is created that speaks of the disassembly of human values and precludes an invitation to rejoice in self worth. While I am not one to base my theories on self fulfilling prophecies, as a Transgender Male to Female the knowledge and acceptance that comes from an inbred form for gender expression, are the tools I use to turn to God as a self evaluating, and sometimes self analyzing inclusion of patterns of insight and even divine intervention.
Deliverance and Reckoning
Transforming the self to being gender variant is an action and a non action. It is an action that can be praised by the prevalence of a condition that reconciles the transgender with the patterns of behavior that created animosity if not catastrophe in their lives. Defeating the ghost in the closet by an understanding, and acceptance that they may now walk the walk and talk the talk, not of their assigned gender from birth, but as a child of God that sees beauty in its variations, and evolutions such that in speaking of oneself the transgender is not burdened by fear, shame and guilt when identifying those key factors that helped them in the act of being and becoming. The self actualizing Transgender who is self disclosing, and not afraid to look at religion as therapeutic, and therapy as a means to self testifies with a message that speaks from an entire life that was filled with questions and answers of a transformation, that is highly based on faith and belief, just who they are in Gods kingdom, with perceptions and insight as to how they see God’s chosen path for them.